Never Seems To End {open}

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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My eyes flickered slightly. Was sleep this easy to come by when I felt safe around something else? Who knew I could feel like I was at peace with the world. I'm sure that if I had been a dog or some other furry creature my ears would have been twitching with contentment. I was sure in a past life I must have been feline because the oddest urge to just purr was rising up in me. How peculiar. There was a calm within me that was not normal. I was a frenzied being, normally up to no good and other such things.

I soft sigh passed my lips and I cuddled closer to her as her hand smoothly ran through my hair. I could have stayed there forever, but I knew she could not and really, neither could I. I lifted my body up, head tilted down ever so slightly with eyes closed and a soft smile on my face. My eyes opened a bit, looking at her through have closed eyes. "You nearly put me to sleep." I said in a rather drowsy voice, yawning in away that said I may have been trying to chase sleep away in that moment. I smiled sleepily before shifting until I could fall back against the best, stretching my arms above my head, much as a cat would upon rising from it's slumber.

Her words caused me to eye her for a moment, then a I nodded to no one, but myself. I might as well just spit out the words I wanted to say. "I didn't want to share." I chuckled softly, "I knew others would look at you as some sort of food. I didn't want to give you to either of the two types of vampire that would want you. The other is the kind that would want your body. No matter how much you tell yourself you are not that pretty, you are, darling and you flaunt it without knowing that that is what you do." I hadn't meant to say so much. I really hadn't.

[Eri]

Akemi was feeling very strange now. She was uncomfortably comfortable. She didn't find it odd that a vampire, older than her former Master infact, that was cuddling with her, though it was only bugging her because her mind would randomly shout out that this vampire shouldn't be trusted. She sighed slightly, but it didn't feel bad to her, at least pyshically. His weight was surprisingly comforting to her for some odd reason.
She blinked in surprise when he spoke, almost as if he was half-asleep to her mind saying that she had nearly put him to sleep. She smiled softly. "Sorry." She said apologetically, looking away from him. He stretched and she was oddly reminded of a cat, she pushed those thoughts away from her mind though. Vampires where always related to bats though. She never saw the comparison, plus what vampire would want to be like one of those filthy, albeit adorable, little flying rodents compared to a regal cat?
Her eyes widened in surprise at his next little bit of a speech. He didn't want to share? What did that mean? He continued talking, saying that he thought another vampire would see her as food. And that he didn't want one that wanted her for her body. She blushed slightly and turned her head away. "Well....my Master always said it was my fate to either be a feast for a vampire, or be turned into a vampire." She said shyly. He wouldn't like that now would he?
She mentally cursed herself. He would probably chew her out now for being so accepting. She blinked in surprise when he mentioned, not the first time either, that she was attractive and that she flaunted what she had. She looked at him, puzzlement etching over her face. "Why do you think that?" She asked curiousity creeping into her tone.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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I listened to the soft apology in her voice and rolled onto my stomache, eyes closed and mind slowly dimming to just the point of barely knowing what was going on around me. A brow rose and I turned my head to look at her. A shoulder lifted in a shrug as I spoke, "Food is food, but what would you rather? Death or eternity?" There was a cold edge to it as I spoke the last word. Sure, being immortal was great and all, but it got lonely and heart breaking at times. I didn't always like being the way I was and sometimes I thought of ways to end it all.

My eyes slowly difted shut as I laid there, listening to her as she spoke. I didn't like what her master had told her, but I was not in control of whatever he had done. I rolled over again and lifted my fingers, playing a bit of flame over them slowly, eyes half closed as I let it leap from fingertip to fingertip. I folded my hand and that small light went out once more. My eyes closed all the way and I could feel the pressure of sleep beating down on me. It was a never ending throb and I surpressed yawn after yawns. My eyes opened ever so slightly when I heard her ask me a question and I shrugged, "Because, it's how I see you." My voice was soft as thistledown as I closed those eyes of mine again.

[Eri]

She shifted slightly as she watched him, almost fascinated by him. He was similar in some ways to her old Master, and yet he was completely different. He showed more emotion than Master, who had been kind to her in his own way but he'd always been a little cold and harsh. This one though, she couldn't place her finger on what made him different. She frowned slightly, turning her head away for a moment though her gaze returned to him when he spoke again.
She smiled slightly. "Either way leads to eternity though. Though this body may die my spirit will live on and find another body though all memories from this body will be forgotten." She said easily, and then it dawned on her. Why would she want to forget some of the things she knew? Of course seeing her family being murdered wouldn't be such a bad thing, but there were other things. The sights she'd seen, the people she'd met. She fought down the panic rising inside her. She didn't want to die!
She took a shuddering breath as she fought to calm herself. "I-i-i never realized how sad it really is to be human. To live for such a short time and then just die of some disease, or old age, or a freak accident and have everything precious ripped from your grasp. You must love being immortal and not having to worry about sickness or age striking you down." She said, folding her arms across her waist and looking down.
Her thoughts were broken when he spoke again, stating that's how he saw her. "How in the world do I flaunt myself? I'm not even that beautiful like some of the others I've seen on the streets. Hell, I've seen guys prettier than me." She said coolly, though she was curious even as she noticed his eyes were closed she glanced around, wondering if she should even attempt to get up and walk. She glanced and rolled her eyes. Of course she wouldn't be able to get away with it either.Seemed she was going to resuming her nocturnal habits, not like she'd ever really lost them after so many years with Master.
"Oh just go to sleep, we can talk more when you wake up. And I'm likely to fall asleep soon anyways. I've lived with vampires too long after all." She said with a small smile that held back her sadness. Was she really doomed to die and forgot this entire life? That would be horrible! Utterly horrible! She shuddered slightly, hoping she'd at least be able to live a full life before she forgot it.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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I listened to what she was saying and wished for death all the more. I knew I would have to let her go at some point, but I didn't want to do it. I wanted to keep her always and make my loneliness go away. I closed my eyes against that unwanted pain and swallowed a maniac laugh. She didn't need to see that side of me. Not yet anyways. My eyes remained shut even as I listened to what she was saying. Both means of life were terrible really. Human ones were so short and vampire ones could be filled with nothingness, as mine was at this moment.

"Really, I hate it. More than you know. It's lonely and painful. Everyone I know is dead. It's just me and a clan that doesn't really stick around me all that much. I might as well hide away somewhere and see how they do on their own. I'm a poor soul that just wants to die." I spoke the words like they were all that kept me within the bounds of sanity. If it wasn't for the fact that he was a leader, he would happily walk into the sunlight, but he did have a clan and he did need to watch over them and keep them out of trouble.

"You flaunt yourself with your disbelief that you are as beautiful as the moon herself. Now, stop arguing with me." My words were playful as I leaned up and pulled her down, not caring if she didn't want to. Sleep was what I wanted right now and a warm body next to me was the other thing that I required. Why? Who could tell, I was an odd one. I didn't much care for being cold at night and she was much warmer than being under a blanket or curled in a ball. I smiled and sighed as I felt the warm fuzz of sleep slip over me.

[Eri]

The girl shifted slightly, suddenly uncomfortable with the thought of her impending doom before looking at him when he spoke since he'd remained silent while she was talking she had rather figured he was asleep, but it seemed not to be the case. She was mildly surprised to hear that he wasn't happy being a vampire.
Her eyes widened slightly. "But have you ever gone out and actually seen the world? Been to places that no other being has been? Done something would literally take years to complete?" She asked, curious. She'd always thought of being immortal as something special, where she could take her time to do anything she pleased.
A soft frown turned her lips down and creased her forehead. Nothing was really turning out right anymore it seemed. Was it because of him? She glanced at the vampire. No, it wasn't him, it was just that things were finally dawning on her. She wasn't likely to be happy either way it seemed.
She blinked in surprise at his second comment. How as disbelief flaunting anything? She shrugged inwardly though her attention focused back on him when he moved towards her. When she was pulled down she released a surprised little squeak that sounded more like her saying meep though her years from living with another vampire had made it become a habit to not resist a vampire when they were pushing or pulling otherwise bones could be broken easily.
She looked over her shoulder curiously even as she felt his breathing ease into that of a sleeping person. I chewed on her lip for a little before sighing slightly and relaxing as well as she could though she honestly didn't like being this close to a guy. Sure, she could have been worrying about being this close to a vampire but she was more worried about the male part of the vampire behind her. She grumbled, shifty so that she was as far away from him as she could manage which really wasn't far at all before tucking her hands under her chin and trying to force herself to doze off which was failing, even if she was tired. She grumbled, wanting to roll onto her other side but not wanting to put herself closer to him than she already was.
Muttering darkly to herself she shifted so that she laying a little more on her stomach, using her hands as a pillow she sighed slightly wondering how long this was going last as she finally dozed off.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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A sad smile touched my features and I looked at her with sullen eyes. "I have lived so long as to see the world and all the glory it has to offer. I have nothing more to live for, except one thing, which has never come into my hands." I looked away from her and closed my eyes again, going through all the things I had done in my life time. My lips twitched and I stared up at the ceiling, "I've done it many times actually and it never changes. It's always the same." My shoulders rose in a shrug and I tired to clear my mind.

A brow rose as I heard the squeak that fell from her lips and a soft chuckle followed. She was such a strange girl. Not something I was used to. She was sweet and it was as though she didn't realize all the things about her that were amazing. As I began to fall into slumber, I pressed my face against her shoulder as I slumbers, mumbling words that no one could really understand. They were soft and seemed to be murmurs of dreams and events long past. In my sleeping mine, I knew she'd rolled over, but I didn't wake. I was too far into my dream state to really notice much and I cuddled closer to the warm body by me. How odd this felt, but how nice. It was so weird.

[Eri]

Akemi had heard his words about him having done what she'd asked him about but sleep was taking hold of her. She frowned slightly as she shifted again, not quite comfortable though she resolved to talk to him when they were awake again.
The girl twitched as her dreams overtook her. She was in a forest, or rather a jungle. She didn't know why or how she got here but she knew she was safe. She glanced at the sky and noted that it was dark and yet she could see as clearly as if it was day, just the shadows and highlights were darker. How could she see this well? She heard a sound she knew she shouldn't be able to hear. She frowned as she turned and saw a large cat about to pounce on her before it was gone.
Her eyes flew up as they flicked around as her eyes adjusted to the darkness and she squeaked in surprised and tensed, trying to jerk back when she realized that she was seeing. The vampire's chest that she had been curled up against of all things. Her breathing was rapid as she fought to control herself and remind herself that this vampire hadn't done anything to hurt her, except maybe keep her trapped in the bed while they slept. A bright blush suffused her face as she realized she'd actually slept with a vampire, perhaps not in the way it was intended but it still bothered her since she was used to sleeping alone.
"Will you please let me up? I need to take care of something." She asked him, prodding his chest just in case he wasn't awake, though she had a feeling he was. She didn't know of too many people that could sleep while their bed-partner was trying to get free.
As she waited for a response she thought about her dream that kept flashing through her head. It'd been so life-like, almost as if it was going to happen to her. Had she been a vampire then? That would explain the seeing and hearing differences. Did that mean she was to become a vampire? If so, who would be her sire? Him? She glanced at the vampire curiously, as a random thought struck her. Was he dreaming? If so, about what? She took another deep breath as she forced herself to relax a little.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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I was in a dream, a dream that I didn't like. Someone was telling me not to do it. They kept trying to get me to stop, but I couldn't. I screamed at them how I couldn't lose her and that if I did, there would be no meaning to my life any longer. I rolled over in my sleep, trying to rid myself of the horror that was playing before. I'd always said I would never change someone. That I couldn't place the burdon upon them. I rolled back toward the female in my bed and held on tightly even as I felt the thrashing of her movement, just as she was going in the dream, screaming out in the pain that had been inflicted on her by those damned shifting creatures.

My eyes sprung wide as I felt my chest being prodded and I breathed in rapid breaths as I tried to focus, focus on what was being said to me. My eyes shifted and slowly began to take in what was around me. We weren't in an ally with nothing more than few of my clan members. I was in my room, with Akemi prodding my chest to get my attention. I glanced at her with wide, fearful eyes and slowly felt myself settling down as I took in what she had been saying. I eyed her for a moment and then shook my head slowly, moving my arms away from her. "Yeah, sure. Bathrooms over there." I said, pointing to a closed door on the opposite side of the bed.

I sat up then and braced my elbows on my knees, taking a deep breath before dropping my head back and letting the bones pop back into place, I stretched my arms over my head and felt my spine and sholders realign as I locked my fingers together. I let out a grateful sigh and looked over my shoulder at her. Eyes dull and without much feeling within them.

[Eri]

Akemi stood up and dusted herself off for some reason when he let her up, noticing that he seemed duller today, or rather tonight it would seem, than before. She passed it off as just waking up as she walked towards the bathroom.
Once she was finished she noticed that he was watching her. She blushed slightly and then noticed his eyes again and frowned. What was wrong with him? She walked towards him and sat on the bed, staring into his eyes calmly. "What's wrong? You don't seem so....happy, carefree, I don't know what word to describe it, but you're different from before." She said quietly, still watching him. Would he be upset she'd notice? Or did he even know something was wrong. Of course he would! Everyone knew that eyes were literally windows into a person's soul and their feelings.
She sighed as she sat on the bed, curling one leg under her. "You know you can tell me if something is bothering you, it's not like I'm going to talk about you to anyone, and I don't even have friends anymore since I killed my Master on accident." She said calmly, sad but true.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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She noticed and I looked away, almost wincing at the idea of her taking note of that. I took a deep breath and turned a cheerful smile on her. "It's nothing. Nothing at all." I told her, attempting to hold that smile in place. I wasn't sure if it was going to work, so I rose from the bed in a quick motion and walked into the bathroom where I splashed water on my face in quick motions. I walked back out and just stopped and stared at her. I wasn't sure what else I could do at the moment.

I shook my head at her when I heard what she said and walked toward her slowly. Without thinking about what I was doing, I place my hand against her cheek, gentle stroking my thumb over the skin. "You do have a friend though. You have me." I said the words softly, as if they were the only thing that kept me going right now. I mean, if it wasn't for the strong need to live, I would have gladly walked out into the sun and burned right now without another backwards glance and that was no joke.

[Eri]

The idea that he was feeling off lingered in the girl's mind. He was definitely different than before. Or had last night been the act and this was the real master that had taken her in? How she would have hated that. He seemed to dislike the fact that she'd noticed he was off, and seemed rather determined to enforce the idea that he was fine with a smile she felt was rather fake even as he claimed nothing was bothering him. She sighed softly and shook her head in defeat. Who was she to make him confront anything he didn't want to? After all, she was the human and he was the vampire, she was like a little ladybug before an elephant. If he really wanted to do something there was really nothing she could do to stop that.
She glanced up then since it seemed her gaze had fallen to her knees, when he was near her. She blinked in surprise when she felt his hand on her cheek and his thumb moving over her skin. She tried not to shudder, but it was hard considering the chills that ran up and down her spine but at his words it seemed to evaporate. Some emotion filled them that almost worried the girl. She lifted her hand to his own, lifting her gaze to meet his. "Then remember you can always tell your friend anything." She murmured before a random thought hit her. "Does this mean you've given up on taking my body?" She asked, tilting her head slightly, in his hand compared to away. "I'm sorry, that was too bold of me." She said, dropping her gaze from him before tears welled in her eyes.
She'd never known kindness as Balthazar was showing her. Yes her Master had been kind in his own way, caring for her in his gruff manner. He'd always made sure that she had enough fresh food, toys, clothes, books, anything and everything she could have really wanted, but she'd never actually had a friend. Her master had literally become her father in a way and as much as she loved the vampire there'd been something missing. And it seemed that something had been the friendship that it seemed was to start blossoming right here and now, simply because he'd taken a fancy to her. "Oh no, I'm sorry, I don't mean to cry, it's just I've never really known anyone to be as kind as you are." She murmured, wiping her eyes with a sleeve when she felt a tear run down her cheek. Tears of happiness at least, hopefully he wouldn't be too upset with her. She didn't see why he would be though, except for her apologizing for everything that she did basically.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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The touch of her skin on mine was an electric feeling and I felt my breath draw in swiftly. I liked the touch, more than I normally liked any touch. Nothing seemed to satisfy me anymore and here was this girl, who had come into my life with such fear and distrust that I was nearly amazed that she did place a hand on me. It was like having someone tell me it was okay for me to be who I was. Okay for me to not be like some people. I wanted a human life, but couldn't grab it. That was okay now though. I had someone to show me the good in me.

A surprised look crossed my features and I let out a roar of laughter, only to try and stop it once more. That was not a question to laugh at. "Yes. I will only take you if you want me to." I said the words with a light shrug. I searched her face for a moment and then let out a slow, uneven breath. I should send her away from me. I really should. I was a scoundrel and the whole of my clan knew that. I was devilish and wicked. Quick to take what I wanted and then drop it, but I couldn't with her, no matter how much I ached to.

"I'm not really that kind." I said, still looking away from her for a moment and then I leaned toward her, looking as though I was going to kiss her lips, but no, I tilted my head to brush my lips over her cheek, the cheek that was not cradled in my hand. My whole body clutched up and there was a gnawing ache that was two things that I could not have from her and so, with a groan of disgust, I pulled away, keeping my eyes on her the whole time. An apologetic smile crossed my features before I turned my eyes toward the ceiling and away from her. I seemed to be doing that a lot tonight.

[Eri]

The girl tried to deny it but failed horribly. Here was a vampire that had basically abducted her off the streets, and had slept in the same bed, stated that he would take whatever he wanted from her, and yet she felt safe. She was content to have her head cradled in his hand when any other human would be repulsed and try to escape. Of course she knew she couldn't truly escape, he'd be able to catch her if he really wanted to keep her here. She toyed with the idea of trying to get away just to see how much he wanted to keep her but decided she shouldn't just incase he saw through her ruse. Plus, though she'd never truly admit it, she rather liked his company.
She flushed when he laughed at her question, gaze falling away before he quieted himself. Had that been a mocking laugh? A laugh that meant she was wrong? She didn't know and it bothered her a bit. Her gaze flicked back to his face, questioning even as he spoke, stating he wouldn't take her unless she wanted it. She smiled softly, thinking but banishing the thoughts before they could truly form in her brain, or at least before they could make her blush anymore.
She frowned when he said he really wasn't that kind. She was going to prove her wrong. She saw him leaning towards her face and figured something was going to happen, either him drinking from her or stealing a kiss, but neither happened, exactly, and she blinked, her brain stuttering for a moment to kick back in realizing he had only kissed her cheek. She smiled softly and shifted. "If you weren't kind you would have stolen my eternity, my life, and my body." She said softly before placing a feather light kiss on his neck before pulling back and eyeing him. She forced herself not to think about what she was going to do, or what repercussions it might have before leaning in to kiss him on the mouth before pulling back with a soft smile. "Instead you've only stolen my first kiss, which is was freely given." She murmured eyeing him. She placed a hand over his heart, or rather where it would be. "Whether or not you believe it you are kind, at least to me and that's what matters right now." She said, not trusting her voice to get any louder than what it had been. She didn't feel like making a fool of herself but having her voice go all squeaky, would've likely ruined everything in the end, though she probably alread had succeeded in looking like an idiot. At least she tried though, well at making him see her point at least.

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Balthazar
Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move. . .
Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt thy love. . .

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I glared at her, knowing up what going through her head before I shrugged and let it go. "You are free to come and go as you please. Just be careful. I would hate to lose you." My voice was sweet as honey while my eyes were soft as clouds. I really did mean every word I said. Sure, she may have said nothing to me, but I could see it in her eyes. Those eyes that could hide nothing and always gave the truth. I saw the color rise high in her cheeks and almost wanted to kidnap her all over again. Which didn't make much since.

Shaking my head, I ignored her words. I didn't believe a word of it. I knew what I was. I was soulless and damned. A shiver raced up my spine and then left as her lips pressed against my neck for a moment and no more than that. I wanted her to come back and do that again. It was the most forward thing I had seen her do and I liked it. I liked the idea that she could have such a dominance in her, whether she knew that or not. Next thing I knew, her lips were on mine and I stared at her wide eyed.

The touch of her hand over my heart was a God send. It was warm and delightful even through my shirt, but little did she know that that simple kiss was not the end of what I wanted. Not right now anyways. My other hand moved to cup her face and bring her lightly toward me before I pressed my own lips to hers in a sultry kiss that lingered against her warm mouth. My tongue darted out and swept lightly over her bottom lip before I pulled back and released her, eyes half closed with a flame burning within them, as bright as the flames that I could control.