--a silent night[Kyo]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

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I was freaking out, turning in circling looking at my spotted body. I was clouded leopard. Big pawed, but with a muscled body just build for climbing and jumping. I growled low in my throat as I thought about what might end up happening to me now. I was a were, something I hadn't thought myself to be. Wait, that was a lie. Or was it. I couldn't remember and it was as if my mind was fighting that. It didn't want me to know what I'd done in this form or why I'd done it. I sat on the ground, head tilt to the side and eyes closed just wishing I could disappear.

My brain didn't proccess that I had been sitting there for awhile, but footsteps suddenly reached my finely attuned ears and I scrambled under the bed, peering out with what I knew to be glowing cat eyes. For all I knew it could be Kyo's siblings again and that would mean trouble. At least I didn't think Kyo would kill me, but I had a feeling they wouldn't hesitate to dispose of me. I let out a soft sigh and glanced back at the door just as someone stepped into the frame and my heart went soaring.

With uncertain movements, I pulled myself from under the bed and scrambled toward him without thinking of the reaction he might have to a long fanged, medium size, clawed beasty coming at him. Front paws rose and I placed them against his leg, claws digging in of their own accord to keep me balanced. I let out a meow of sound and realized that it was fairly similar to a domestic cat, just a bit throatier then the others. I wondered if he'd realize it was me.

[Eri]

Kyo's gaze was flicking around the room, hardly able to believe his eyes. She was gone? Of course, it made sense, sadly. He released a rather deep growl as one hand moved to the door frame before he clenched his fist, tearing a chunk wood from the frame before whipping it out the window which shattered though he merely sniffed, clearly unsatisfied, or rather his demon wasn't satisfied and had surfaced at the sudden shift in emotions and could be easily seen in his bright red eyes.
He closed his eyes taking a deep breath, fighting the urge to destroy everything like his other side wanted too. When he felt claws in his leg his eyes flicked open as his head tilted to look down. His lip twitched. Oh this was great, some mongrel was in his territory. A wicked grin taking control of his face. Perfect timing.
"I don't know what the hell you were...." He trailed off at as the cat dug it's claws into his leg and looked at him. He frowned staring at the cat, a frown etching into his face.
"Ashe?" He asked curiously, not really believing it. She hadn't smelled like an animal before, and yet something was vaguely familiar about the cat. Plus what animal would be stupid enough to enter his domain and give itself away like it had. Unless it was stupid. What a fun night, not.[/size]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

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I glared up at him and let out a low growling sound as he went and broke a window. I would get him for that one later. Really? Did he think that poorly of me. I dug my claws into his leg more and bared teeth at him. That's when I caught myself though and allowed my eyes to widen with my own shock. I let out a mewing sound before butting my head against his leg. I tensed though as I listened to his voice and cowered downward, ears flickering backward in fear.

My name on his lips was the sweetest sound and I released his leg to wind around his legs, purring in that loud jungle cat way of mine. I came up to just under his knee and my tail wrapped nearly around his legs as I twirled and twined slowly. I was trying to get him to realize it was me, rather than running and hiding under the bed like my instincts told me I should. I was sure if he said something horrible or tried anything, that would be the first place I would go. It seemed safest to me, though the human part of my mind knew it wasn't.

[Eri]

Well, he was certainly upset that he didn't get to destroy something and rend it into pieces, but he was elated. She hadn't left him! She hadn't left! A soft smile crossed over his mouth. There was no doubt about it being another. What fool of an animal would dare set their claws into me. He was a vampire, an elder, an elder that could possess the strength of an ancient with an urge to kill that ran down into his very core.
He sighed, fighting down that urge as he felt the cat twining about his legs. "This is rather unexpected. Especially since you never smelled like an animal before." He said, his tone carefully neutral as he eyed the cat before moving towards the bed and patting the space beside him. "You're fine though, you know I won't hurt you." He said, his tone still flat. Hey, he was trying to get over the shock of his girl turning into a cat. He sniffed slightly, not trying to smell anything in particular. "Did you know about this?" He asked calmly, wondering if it was all just a trick, it wouldn't surprise him. Not in the least.[/size]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

[/size]

I let out a low growling sound when he talked about smelling like an animal. Well, how the hell was I supposed to know. This had never happened to me and I didn't like that it was happening now. I sat on the ground and stared at him, tail twitching from side to side in utter annoyance. My ears flickered backward and I wondered for a moment if I should go over to him. What if he decided he didn't want me around? What if he decided to hurt me? A shiver ran up my spine and I rose slowly to uncertain paws.

My limbs moved forward and I came to a stop at his legs, jumping up on my back paws and resting my front ones on his knees. I shook my feline skull and looked down with very sad eyes. I wasn't sure how I felt about all this at the moment and I wanted to know how he felt about it all, even if I was a little scared of what might happen to me.

[Eri]

She growled at his comment and he smiled slightly. Yeah, it was definitely Ashe, she was the only one that had the guts to stand up to him. He smiled softly despite himself. She seemed almost worried that he was going to do something drastic. Actually he didn't really blame her. She was a were, even if she was his lover or had been for the night, and as such was technically the sworn enemy of him. But he was slowly rearranging the way he was thought of her. She was still Ashe, she was still the same human-esque person, this new discovery about another side of her was just something new, and she had long know he was a vampire so she could have slaughtered him at any time.
She seemed to come to some decision to at least trust him when she approached. He smiled softly and reached down to lift her onto his lap. "You're still my Ashe, and this isn't exactly permanent or at least this version isn't." He said calmly, rubbing behind her ears almost absent-mindedly. She was still Ashe so what was the big deal? Sure she was an animal and had he known he likely would have killed her before, but now. Perhaps weres weren't so bad? No, he wouldn't make that generalization. Many other weres would have jumped at the chance to bed and slaughter him. She wasn't a were, she was simply Ashe, that's it. That's all he'd consider her as, his Ashe. And should another find out about her condition, well, then he'd just have to slaughter any that tried to hurt her, simple as that.
He looked down at the cat. "Remember, you're the only one that's ever had the courage to face me down, I'm not going to be giving that up so easily." He murmured with a smile. Amazing that he could actually be a sweet or loving guy when he felt the need to be. Such an unheard of thing for the most part, at least for him it seemed.[/size]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

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I felt him lift me and I flipped my feline ears back and glared at him with amber cat eyes. Oh he was going to get it later. Maybe. I wasn't sure about that one yet. I let out a feline sigh and flopped down on his lap in a laying position and glazed up at him, flicking my long tail from side to side in mild annoyance, but that soon stopped when I heard what he said and I sat up, placed a paw on his face before licking his cheek with my raspy tongue before I laid back down and closed my eyes.

The stroking behind my ear was not something I liked. I felt like I was a pet rather than someone loved and I turned my head to sink my teeth into his hand with a low rasp of a growl, while one eye locked on his face. I squeezed down lightly for a moment before releasing him and laying my head down. Without thinking about it, I began to kneed his leg with my claws, not even thinking about the fact that they could be sharp and painful.

Standing up on his lap, I ran my side against his chest, purring in that jungle cat way. I hoped he didn't mind a little cat hair all over his clothes.

[Eri]

Kyo was a little upset, mostly since he didn't really know what he was doing anymore. He'd had a couple cats before and knew how to care for them and such but this was Ashe, his Ashe and now it felt awkward to him, especially after she had glared at him in her own feline way. She seemed mildly annoyed with him too, but appreciated his words none-the-less, if the lick was anything to go by.
He grimaced slightly before smiling slightly. "At least you're not a dog or something, I don't think I could handle any slobbery kisses like that." He commented, trying to put them both at ease, and probably failing epically. He sighed softly, but when he felt teeth he tensed up, ready to toss her from his lap but relaxed when her teeth left his hand. "Alright, alright, I just don't know what to do you know? I want to help you, but I just don't know how." He said, sighing in defeat. Well there might be a first, him actually admitting he wanted to help someone, assuming she needed help.
He winced when he felt her claws digging into his skin. He would have taken offense but the purring put him at ease. This was so awkward to him. He sighed softly and lowered his head towards her when she was rubbing against him. "I really don't suppose you know how long you're going to stay like that do you?" He asked, tilting his head up just slightly. At least he was being semi-intelligent enough to ask yes or no questions. [/size]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

[/size]

I could feel his awkward energy and I wanted to cry. I wanted to hide and never let him see me again. I felt every feline muscle in me tense up and I was thinking about jumping off of his lap. I didn't want to feel like he didn't want me anymore which was exactly how I felt right this moment. It sucked more than anything else and I would have gladly buried myself alive. I laid my head on my paws and turned my eyes away from him. I didn't want to deal with this. I felt like I'd been stabbed in the heart, multiple times.

Once more that over-whelming feeling of unwant hit me and I knew that he was about ready to toss me away, just for biting him. Great, I could do nothing right in my life and I just wanted to be out of here. Fast. I stood up once more, shook my head and jumped with typical feline grace, to the floor below and took off out into the hallway. I was hoping I would make it out of the apartment before this happened, but I only made it to the living room before I changed back.

Without even thinking I just stopped and hit my knees against the ground, head in my hands. It was just my luck. Always my luck that when I managed to get something good in my life, everything would turn into a nightmare the moment I let my guard down. I didn't want him to see me, I didn't want to see him, yet I couldn't compel myself to get up off the ground. It was as if I'd just lost the will to move at all. I didn't realize what I was doing, but I laid down on my side on the floor, shivering and cradled my knees to my chest. I was broken, so broken.

[Eri]

Something was wrong. He didn't know what, nor how he knew, but he knew it deep down inside of him. He looked down to Ashe, gaze softening a bit. She was still his Ashe, the personality he was coming to love if he already didn't, she just had a few quirks. They could be worked through. His own weren't so easy so he should be thankful, or perhaps they should be. And yet he still felt this urge to comfort her any way he could and yet didn't know how. Useless, he hated feeling useless, that's why he'd left the clan before Sai had killed them. They wouldn't let him do anything. Too dangerous they said, boredom had been driving him insane. It was a random thought, but he was actually pleased that she wasn't as normal as he thought she was. He would have likely grown bored, his love would have never waned, but this was different, something he would likely never know enough about.
And again the feeling that something was wrong magnified, making him nervous. Ashe seemed to have had enough of something and bolted. He sat in puzzlement for a moments before lurching after her, suddenly not wanting her out of his sights. He reached the door just in time to see her change back and fall to the ground. Worry etched itself onto his face as he moved towards her, removing his cloak and placing it over her before leaning down. How he wanted to just pull her into his arms and comfort her, but he didn't know how. He fought down a growl at his own idiocy.
"Ashe, listen to me," He began as a soft murmur. "I don't want to hurt you, nor do I want to lose you. You're the best thing that's happened to save for the birth of my siblings. I don't care if you're a were, I wouldn't care if you were some old hag or anything like that. You're Ashe and I'll always love you." He finished, leaning down to place a soft kiss on her cheek. "I don't know what to do, I'll learn, but you have to tell me and just remember I'd rather face a thousand burning suns than to bear the thought of losing you simply because I acted stupidly." He said with a soft sigh, rather amazed at himself. How long had it been since he'd been so forward in his feelings with anyone? So long he couldn't remember. How long since he'd felt this way about anyone? Never, she was special, and what he said was true, he'd rather face death than lose her.[/size]

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

[/size]

I didn't hear him come after me and for a moment I hoped he wouldn't, but then that gnawing feeling of unwant seemed to grow and consume me. I turned my face into the floor being my arms up to cover my face even more so. I was fighting tears and pain that were very uncommon for me. My whole belly clutched up as if I was about to throw up the nothingness that was within it. Maybe that would have made me feel better, but that was highly unlikely. I was too pained by all this to think anything would help me.

Fabric touched my bare skin and for a moment, I flinched away from it, thinking myself to be in grave danger, but danger from what? Nothing could hurt me more than the notion that Kyo was likely to kill me just for being what I was. No matter what he said, that feeling was locked deep in my gut, burning there like the sun did one's eyes when they stared at it for too long. I bit my lip until I taste blood before I released it with a soft whimper at the injury I had inflicted upon myself. I was a stupid woman. Stupider than any before me.

His voice was a soft hum in my mind. I wanted to listen, but words were just that. Words. They could be broken at any moment and maybe that was why I just wanted to break down and never become whole again. I wanted to throw those three words back in his face, but I couldn't, because he leaned down and kissed my cheek, totally breaking what resistance I had against him. I rolled onto my other side, facing him with eyes that were nearly spilling tears onto the floor. "I don't even know what to do." My voice caught and looked away from him as the tears just fell and kept falling.

[Eri]

This helplessness was bothering Kyo to no end. He didn't know what he was to do! He wasn't about to lose her simply because he'd made a mistake. The thought hit him though. Would he have gone through everything had he known she was a were before? He watched, trying to convince himself that he would have, but he knew it was a lie. But how else would he have found out except in a similar way to what happened tonight? Likely he wouldn't have, he'd never given the weres a reason to truly hate him, only killed those that trespassed on his turf, which most could understand. He was rather territorial in the end, but those thoughts bothered him and he sighed softly, pushing them away. He knew this were though and that's what made the difference to him.
He saw her flinch when he'd put his cloak over her. It made his eyes widen slightly in surprise and even a small bit of fear. What had he done this time? "Hush m'love, nobody will hurt you, not here of all places." He murmured. How had she managed to wrench his heart? Make him care for her? Make him want to comfort her? Make him want to hold her close and shield her from everything that sought to harm her in anyway? How? How could she, after so many trying why was she the one to succeed? It didn't matter how though, she had and she was his and he didn't want to give her up, not now not ever. He twitched a little scenting her blood and hearing a whimper come from her. He felt another growl trying to bubble out at his weakness, his stupidity, his helplessness, just him in general but he fight it down, not wanting to alarm her.
He felt rather ignored by her, as if she was just brushing the words off. In one ear, out the other. Though those thoughts vanished when she rolled off, and pity, longing and hatred of himself wrenched his heart that he was just discovering again. A sad little smile flashed over his mouth at her words. That made two of them. He was silent for a moment before laying down beside her. "I don't either, but I'm willing to learn and to help you out in anyway I can." He said softly before reaching with a hand to brush away her tears with his thumb. "I'll do anything for you." He murmured, without really thinking before kissing her forehead gently. How he meant each of those words. If she wanted his death, then so be it, for her it would be simple enough, he knew of a few that wanted his head. Of course he hadn't believed those words until he said them. He considered himself blessed ot have found someone like her, and now it was his fault that he had almost lost her. It wasn't her fault, especially if she hadn't known she was a were. He wasn't going to blame her either, it was simply something they would get around and deal with it when it came around, just as he had his own problems that would likely eventually surface.[/size]

((blah v.v''))

[!!elise[the cannibal]]

Ashe
Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart. . .
A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. . .

[/size]

His voice may have been sweet, but it made me want to shy away for a moment, but I couldn't do that. I wanted to turn and just cling to him, but I was scared that if I did such a think he would just snap my neck and leave me for dead, toss me out into the streets for something to decide to eat me. I wanted to scream and throw a tantrum, but something clogged my throat and wouldn't let me do so. God it was so weird wanting to do something, but being unable to just because it was someone who had stolen my heart and claimed my soul. He could kill me now and I would die, hating myself, but forever loving him.

I felt the touch of his thumb acrossed my face as he wiped away my tears. He was laying next to me and I took in a deep breath before releasing it slowly. I caught his hand with both of mine and just held it tightly. I didn't want him to move away from me. Not now, not ever. The feel of his lips against my forehead was reassuring and I lifted my head slightly to keep the contact with his lips. I didn't want him to move away from me and I didn't want to move away from him and so, I moved closer to him, till my chest touched his.

My eyes were not on his face, they stayed away from his face. I was scared to see what might be there and I wasn't sure I could deal with something horrible. My hands released his and one drifted to his side, laying there gently. I just wanted to took some kind of contact with him. Any kind of contact even if we were laying on the floor.

[Eri]

He knew things where still tense, it was obvious to him because she didn't seem to want to meet his gaze. What was she expecting to find there? Hatred? Malice? Loathing? No, if any was to be noticed in his face it would have been directed toward himself. He loved her, he knew that, know at least. If only she knew exactly how much he hated himself for causing her this pain. Even if he really wasn't the cause he figured he was and therefore he was to blame. He didn't deserve her, not really. He truly was a horrible, monster of a vampire, wasn't even truly worth the title of vampire. Such horrible thoughts in reality. You know what, he did deserve his love, he'd live such a lonely life, fighting his monster, he deserved something good in his life. Something that was stubborn enough to not want to leave him. Someone that would make him want to fight anything to protect her.
He did note that she seemed to relish in their contact. Ok, he could handle that. Perhaps she was on the path to forgiving him? He certainly hoped so. He smiled softly even as she released his hand to rest her own against his side. "I'll never hurt you on purpose, you have my word as the eldest remaining Larodia." He murmured before pressing his lips to her forehead again.
His smile did broaden when she'd moved closer to him. Forgiveness? He certainly hoped so, and he certainly hoped he was reading her correctly. His free hand was shifted so that it was resting behind her, and had they been standing, or even in a different position he would have all but crushed her to him, he didn't want to smother her. "I really didn't mean to harm you in anyway." He murmured quietly. Ok, so he felt like a complete and total asshole. "I only got upset because I thought you had left me." He said, hoping that she'd like that explanation. Actually, it was the truth, if you wanted to call his destroying the doorframe in his anger at finding her missing being upset. Did he really care about her being a were? Of course, it just meant he'd have to protect her from the other vampires and creatures that lived in the world. Something he would willingly do until the end of his days, and it looked like he'd likely have something to live for, he didn't want to leave Ashe anyways.[/size]

((hmmmmm))